This is going to be a weird post...sorry.
For some reason my body felt it necessary for me to have my lady time two times this month...whoohoo!! This has led to me feeling incredibly gross and wanting to do nothing but lay around and eat icky food. Blah. I have mostly resisted the icky foods but have pretty much lounged around since yesterday.
Friday night I stayed at my parents house because my upstairs neighbors were soooo loud I knew I wasn't going to get any sleep.
Saturday morning I hit the gym and then went back to Dayton and went thrifting with Stephanie before going to The Pledge's last show. I really enjoyed the show and seeing some of the people that I don't get to see often enough.
Sunday I went back to my parents to do laundry, eat pie and watch the Soap channel. My mom took me out for Panera and it was sooooo sooooo good. The most exciting part....I BROUGHT MONTY HOME WITH ME!!!!!! He was so cute on the drive home and lost it when we turned onto our street. This morning we took a long walk since a lot of the snow is melting and have spent the day cuddling and playing.
I did venture out to the gym because I was starting to feel gross again and while I was gone I missed the UPS man who was delivering the dress my parents got me for Valentine's Day. Boo. Hopefully they'll stop by tomorrow before I have work.
Wednesday I have a meeting at Miami's VOA campus about transferring there and finishing up my bachelor's degree in Applied Sociology. They don't have a transfer agreement with Sinclair, so it all depends on whether or not all my classes transfer. I worked too hard and long to have those classes not count, so that is the deciding factor on making the move to Cincinnati.
I keep talking about how I'm being strong and standing up to the guy who has come back into my life and then things happen and I get lonely and right when I get lonely he texts me and says something nice and I want to give in and not feel alone for a day. Then I remember what I felt like when I did just that they other week with him and I snap out of it. Gah. I just feel like this is how it is always going to be for me...being lonely and making mistakes.
I'm bummed I already went to the gym today because I'm back to feeling gross and now I have nothing to do tonight. I guess I could read the book club book....sounds like a good idea.
Monday, February 22, 2010
Thursday, February 18, 2010
getting back into the swing of things.
I really need to get back into blogging!!! I have plenty of time to catch up on blogs and to post blogs, I just haven't felt like being online that much as of late.
My life has been pretty much the same, work and hanging out with Stephanie and spending time in Troy. With my apartment all packed up, I don't like being there much...its boring and kind of sad. So on my days off I've been hanging out in Troy with Monty during the day. I get to watch the SOAP channel and cuddle with my pup who I miss sooooooooo sooooooooo soooooooo much, he has been at my parents house for so long. Monty is not an inside dog and even in the cold I take him on 30 minute walks, but with the TONS of snow we've been getting and the fact that none of the streets/sidewalks in my neighborhood have been plowed or shoveled I can't take him out of the yard!
School stuff is getting a bit more worked out, but I'm not sure it will all fall into place in time for me to go next quarter though. I guess I will do what I can, I need to stay motivated and on track to starting a life for myself.
I forgot to post that I did a Valentine's swap with the lovely Jules over at the life of a cupcake!. I received her package a couple days before Valentine's Day and it helped to make me feel not so poopy about the day. She sent me the CUTEST things and I will make sure to post some pictures of all the goodies tomorrow!! Thank you Jules, I LOVED everything!!!
Stephanie being the sweet, loving friend that she is knit me some adorable washcloths to cheer me up from the blue days I've been having. I wish I was as good at knitting as she is!!! I will post pictures of them tomorrow as well.
Other than all that, not a lot has happened...just a bunch of randomness like:
For Valentine's day my mom bought me a rose and chocolates, I don't really like chocolate but she does. So the chocolate was actually for her, she just didn't want to buy it for herself and she knew I'd tell her to keep it. She is a goof. Her getting to keep my chocolate resulted in me getting a dress from F21 to replace it, so it all worked out.
I've actually had things to do at work this week and it has made the time fly by sooo fast. I miss feeling productive and like I'm a part of something. My previous job wasn't hard by any sense of the word, but I did have responsibilities and obligations and people that I couldn't let down. My current job though, I could miss a months worth of work and be able to catch up in a day.
My car has gotten stuck in my parking lot two times!! Luckily each time people were around to help me get out, but it still took forever.
I'm still struggling with having the guy back in my life. I'm standing my ground though and have finally made him realize I will probably never give him another chance...I think five is enough.
Time to watch Being Erica on Hulu and go to bed. I plan on having an early day tomorrow consisting of gym time, going out for breakfast/catching up on blogs and visiting Mr. Monty.
My life has been pretty much the same, work and hanging out with Stephanie and spending time in Troy. With my apartment all packed up, I don't like being there much...its boring and kind of sad. So on my days off I've been hanging out in Troy with Monty during the day. I get to watch the SOAP channel and cuddle with my pup who I miss sooooooooo sooooooooo soooooooo much, he has been at my parents house for so long. Monty is not an inside dog and even in the cold I take him on 30 minute walks, but with the TONS of snow we've been getting and the fact that none of the streets/sidewalks in my neighborhood have been plowed or shoveled I can't take him out of the yard!
School stuff is getting a bit more worked out, but I'm not sure it will all fall into place in time for me to go next quarter though. I guess I will do what I can, I need to stay motivated and on track to starting a life for myself.
I forgot to post that I did a Valentine's swap with the lovely Jules over at the life of a cupcake!. I received her package a couple days before Valentine's Day and it helped to make me feel not so poopy about the day. She sent me the CUTEST things and I will make sure to post some pictures of all the goodies tomorrow!! Thank you Jules, I LOVED everything!!!
Stephanie being the sweet, loving friend that she is knit me some adorable washcloths to cheer me up from the blue days I've been having. I wish I was as good at knitting as she is!!! I will post pictures of them tomorrow as well.
Other than all that, not a lot has happened...just a bunch of randomness like:
For Valentine's day my mom bought me a rose and chocolates, I don't really like chocolate but she does. So the chocolate was actually for her, she just didn't want to buy it for herself and she knew I'd tell her to keep it. She is a goof. Her getting to keep my chocolate resulted in me getting a dress from F21 to replace it, so it all worked out.
I've actually had things to do at work this week and it has made the time fly by sooo fast. I miss feeling productive and like I'm a part of something. My previous job wasn't hard by any sense of the word, but I did have responsibilities and obligations and people that I couldn't let down. My current job though, I could miss a months worth of work and be able to catch up in a day.
My car has gotten stuck in my parking lot two times!! Luckily each time people were around to help me get out, but it still took forever.
I'm still struggling with having the guy back in my life. I'm standing my ground though and have finally made him realize I will probably never give him another chance...I think five is enough.
Time to watch Being Erica on Hulu and go to bed. I plan on having an early day tomorrow consisting of gym time, going out for breakfast/catching up on blogs and visiting Mr. Monty.
Sunday, February 14, 2010
hello!!!!!!
I have been quite absent on blogger as of late. Things are ehhhhhhh and I'm just trying to figure things out and not whine about them on here. I have been taking what steps I can to get things in motion, like filling out FAFSA, requesting info on schools and rsvp'ing to info seminars, inquiring about apartments, packing up my apartment (except for the tv, a few dishes and my clothes) so that I am ready to move out the second I find a new place and working through the anger I still have over the heartbreak/depression I went through over the summer.
I hope everyone is doing much better than I have been. Things will start looking up soon and I will do a better post later this week about some goodies I've received and other not blue happenings in my life, but right now Clueless is on and I have a coconut bar from DLM to eat.
I hope everyone is doing much better than I have been. Things will start looking up soon and I will do a better post later this week about some goodies I've received and other not blue happenings in my life, but right now Clueless is on and I have a coconut bar from DLM to eat.
Monday, February 8, 2010
love it
All I want to do is listen to this album over and over and over and over
again every single day. It makes me so happy.
again every single day. It makes me so happy.
Thursday, February 4, 2010
MEG!!! YOU ARE AMAZING!!!!
A few days ago I won the super duper cute and generous giveaway over at Meg's blog, Twisted Tree and today I got my prizes in the mail!!!!!!!!!!!!
I LOVE IT ALL!!!
A huge huge huge THANK YOU to MEG, you are amazing and this made my week!!!
Everything is lovely and I feel very lucky to have won!!!
xo
you've got a lure I can't deny, but you've had your chance so say goodbye.
It has been a bit since I have posted and I guess I have a little something to post about.
My weekend was low key, spent drinking coffee, going to F21, eating pizza and watching Gilmore Girls and Whip It! with Stephanie. It was a good weekend and I enjoyed staying in.
Monday we had our book club meeting, Stephanie made yummy salad and pasta and I brought a bread that was packaged as parmesan garlic bread but was actually jalapeno cheddar...oh well!!!
The guy that broke my heart over the summer texted me the other week and we have been talking a little about what happened and what I went through. Monday he asked if we could get dinner Tuesday evening because he was going to be in town...I said yes.
At first I wasn't nervous about it but as the day went on Tuesday I just had this feeling of this could go terribly wrong. I won't go into great detail about the entire evening because it was quite intense and emotional, but he got to my place and we caught up a little bit and watched some Veronica Mars. Then he kissed me and I got a bit swept up in not being alone but quickly realized it was a mistake and I was better than that. We went to a little Thai place down the street and he asked me to tell him everything about what I went through and what I had felt and what I was feeling now...so I did.
I haven't talked about it much on my blog, but basically I was depressed and didn't eat and worked out like a crazy person for two months and lost 25 lbs. There is a bunch more but I don't want to go into it. Bah. Anyways.
When I was telling him I thought he was going to either throw up or cry. What I said was a lot to hear but he said he was better off knowing. He apologized a ton and explained himself a bit...I didn't push for more information or explanation. I'm at the point I think where I'm past wanting a ton closure, I just want to move on and be happy and find the right person. He admitted he was interested in trying things again, but I was not willing to try and we're going to work on being just friends. It was embarrassing telling him everything and I was sure he thought I was crazy, but he was understanding and said if anything he respected me even more now.
Overall, it went wonderful...I didn't cry, I got a lot off my chest, I've moved on a bit more and I can see more clearly where I am in my life.
Yay!!!
I had a lovely talk about it all yesterday with Stephanie over iced coffees and pie and I know it will take work to stay in this mindset but I think I can do it and having her to listen and offer advice when I need it will definitely help me along the way. THANK YOU STEPHANIE!!!
Whoo...that was a bit of a heavy post so I am going to leave it at that. Plus I have to get ready for work and want to stop at Michael's before hand to get some new yarn!!
xo
My weekend was low key, spent drinking coffee, going to F21, eating pizza and watching Gilmore Girls and Whip It! with Stephanie. It was a good weekend and I enjoyed staying in.
Monday we had our book club meeting, Stephanie made yummy salad and pasta and I brought a bread that was packaged as parmesan garlic bread but was actually jalapeno cheddar...oh well!!!
The guy that broke my heart over the summer texted me the other week and we have been talking a little about what happened and what I went through. Monday he asked if we could get dinner Tuesday evening because he was going to be in town...I said yes.
At first I wasn't nervous about it but as the day went on Tuesday I just had this feeling of this could go terribly wrong. I won't go into great detail about the entire evening because it was quite intense and emotional, but he got to my place and we caught up a little bit and watched some Veronica Mars. Then he kissed me and I got a bit swept up in not being alone but quickly realized it was a mistake and I was better than that. We went to a little Thai place down the street and he asked me to tell him everything about what I went through and what I had felt and what I was feeling now...so I did.
I haven't talked about it much on my blog, but basically I was depressed and didn't eat and worked out like a crazy person for two months and lost 25 lbs. There is a bunch more but I don't want to go into it. Bah. Anyways.
When I was telling him I thought he was going to either throw up or cry. What I said was a lot to hear but he said he was better off knowing. He apologized a ton and explained himself a bit...I didn't push for more information or explanation. I'm at the point I think where I'm past wanting a ton closure, I just want to move on and be happy and find the right person. He admitted he was interested in trying things again, but I was not willing to try and we're going to work on being just friends. It was embarrassing telling him everything and I was sure he thought I was crazy, but he was understanding and said if anything he respected me even more now.
Overall, it went wonderful...I didn't cry, I got a lot off my chest, I've moved on a bit more and I can see more clearly where I am in my life.
Yay!!!
I had a lovely talk about it all yesterday with Stephanie over iced coffees and pie and I know it will take work to stay in this mindset but I think I can do it and having her to listen and offer advice when I need it will definitely help me along the way. THANK YOU STEPHANIE!!!
Whoo...that was a bit of a heavy post so I am going to leave it at that. Plus I have to get ready for work and want to stop at Michael's before hand to get some new yarn!!
xo
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